» @ Monday, December 05, 2011
What does this heart wants? What can i do in order for me to not feel this way? Why am i always in this phase, why cant i be like a normal girlfriend? I don't understand what i want, i dont even know what i want anymore. i hate being in this situation,wait i don't even know what situation i am in. I don't know i don't know i don't know. FUCCCCCKKK.
Sometimes i feel like just being alone, i need a place to hide, a hole where i can squeeze myself in , just me and my thoughts. This thoughts that i have, all these little voices telling me what to do and how to react are all clashing against each other.
Before i had a boyfriend i always know what i expect from him, i need my freedom, i dont want anything holding me against what i initally want to do. However , when time fly past and we get more closer, there's always something that we have to compromise. I know i am one selfish bitch , urgh , why is all these sudden feelings suddenly coming in ? Am i getting my period ? or am i just a little paranoid fucker. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
decisions, decisions, decisions.
